Yaay.. new hard drive =D

KEYPAD JAM!! =p

haha.. just before I wrote this entry, for some reason, my "enter" key was jammed, and suddenly hundreds of drafts were keyed into my blogger system...

and wualla... now I have 400+ posts... of which 50+ of them are a mistake from an enter key.... I'm too lazy to delete them anywayz... so I shall change my keyboard...


haha...

I'm the proud new owner of a brand new 80gb Toshiba External Hard Disk Drive... at a low low cost of 100+, its sure something to be proud of....

lol... *beat timothy again!* haha
timo got his 40gb drive at $99

sad thing is, its relatively big and heavy...... sianz... haha

but who cares! not like i'm going to bring it around forever or somthing like dat...



my youth group is going to do street evangelism in a fortnight or two from now... and mich and I are in charge of leading the youth into battle on the streets...
I've no idea what to do or where to start, or am I even fit enough to lead the youth...

sigh

my faith has been really shaken recently.... with all those non-spiritual-total-intellectual debates...
I wonder actually where I'm heading too...

I've no motivation to study
I've no motivation to work...

Its like I've became a complete anti-self...

Could it be my alter-ego taking over?




I havn't seen him for so long.... Going to see him again tomorrow... wonder, will he still see the same me? or have I changed so much in such a time?

My heart feels warmer...
Yet my soul feels colder...

I'm trapped in a maelstrom of what should be and what shouldnt be....

I know that I love him...


He didnt reject this time... in fact, he took the first step.....
I believe....... that its possible...

I've never doubted him once...
But why do I have such great fear?

I fear.. that one day it will end.... as so many has came to past..... and another chapter will close painfully... sealing my heart once again...

Will this love take flight?....


I never want it to end....




please.. stay with me till the end?...........